8.16.2006
whered you go?
the flow to the golden empire needs to be reborn, its dying. I can not end up another mindless suit. Its makin me crazy, need to challenge my mind and reach financial independence....oh yea, thats really all i want.
8.02.2006
Send to a FrienD
I think i may kill this blog and compile all my insanity into a huge document...
my creativity is stunted by my ADD and lack of focus.
get ready for the project "bollywood movie"
my creativity is stunted by my ADD and lack of focus.
get ready for the project "bollywood movie"
7.24.2006
golden child
Now as I am sure everyone knows that crazy shit is going down in Lebanon and Israel, mad heads are dying left and right. While it is a controversial topic in general, can an argument with someone regarding a different perspective create the loss of a friendship? While initially there are number of unknowns like, what is the friendship like, which sides, the partie's backgrounds, the partie's tendencies and attitude. The answer i believe is no, but i do think that arguments/conflicts of any nature when two sides take rigid stances, allows a channel for latent feelings and urges to become imminent.
So in an indirect way, yes.
While i am not going to discuss the viewpoints and stances taken within the argument which in one partie's mind was a "fight" opposed to an argument, is just one example of the miscommunication and interpretation.
I think there were too many assumptions made by both parties, that led to the dismay that happened. While one party was lacking substantiated proof, and connecting dots/ties on their own without knowing all the facts, the other party was making personal attacks on integrity and lack of intelligence. While both parties are blatantly idiots, the latter perhaps more, both imagined their assertions to be correct. Once again i believe this lies within the scope of the argument and the methods used by both parties. One party may be used to a systematic structured method of arguing points, which may not use reasoning as often as it should, perhaps similar to the legal system in this country as the probability of acquittal is directly related to the amount of money spent on your representation. Another party may be used to a much looser way of arguing which only involves logic and takes into account truths opposed to spoken words which in some cases can be complete contradictions. Both parties have similar goals, trying to convince the other party of their view and if possible to concede defeat. Here in lies a conflict within itself that has no bearing on the actual topic being discussed. When you mix in unknown factors, as stated in the introduction the situation can lead to disarray very fast.
And while this post has been made in general, i am sure you can tell i am one of the parties within a conflict of this nature.
To make a final point on this topic, the argument was quite atrocious as both parties had a serious lack of knowledge with various areas, leading to a shitstorm. After hearing people WITH knowledge, i believe both parties can see the errors in their logic along with a sound understanding of the opposing parties points.
However the escalation of the shitstorm has brought up serious levels of agression and animosity between both parties. When personal attacks are escalated to the point of direct attacks of character and intelligence, shit will inevitable go down. When a party blatantly says that the other is ignorant and stupid, nothing will help. Nor if a party says that the other party things the world revolves around them.
Since this is my blog and is completely biased i will be taking my stance at this point. There are a number of factors which affected this conflict:
Inferiority complexes according to Alfred Adler:
"A secondary inferiority feeling relates to an adult's experience of being unable to reach an unconscious, fictional final goal of subjective security and success to compensate for the inferiority feelings."
The roots of the inferiority feelings may be deeply embedded from various sources, childhood, the overshadowing of a successful sibling, a sense of guilt for not achieving at the levels desired, etc. All of these lead to insecurites with an individual's psyche.
What i think can be a brilliant indicator of this type of feelings is the presumtious nature of thinking that one has a significant impact on another parties insecurities. I can see this being a real possibility in certain situations if both parties do the same thing and have been for a significant amount of time, such as being pre-med in college and then going on to medical school and doing residency and eventually as doctors, 15 years with someone being significantly better than you can definitely affect your attitude, depending on the type of relationship between the two parties. BUT if both parties are doing completly different things, there is no correlation for success jealousy complex to occur. It can, but is highly unlikely. And in the specific case in hand, has no bearance.
In conclusion, skeletons in the closet are bad, they should be addressed, and conflicts/arguments should not be the medium for these issues to be surfaced. Also parties should not have a false impression that they are experts in subject matter that they may have taken a class in once. After taking an intro class in portfolio management does not warrant someone giving advice on stock investments at the same level as a portfolio manager managing a successful hedgefund for 15 years. You just don't do it, unless ofcourse you really are what your worst fears are...
I for one do not want to lose a friend over such ridiculous matter, burning bridges is not my style, but if the other party feels that way, then there is no point in discussing this.
I wish the best of success to all in their endeavors and in life. Cheers.
So in an indirect way, yes.
While i am not going to discuss the viewpoints and stances taken within the argument which in one partie's mind was a "fight" opposed to an argument, is just one example of the miscommunication and interpretation.
I think there were too many assumptions made by both parties, that led to the dismay that happened. While one party was lacking substantiated proof, and connecting dots/ties on their own without knowing all the facts, the other party was making personal attacks on integrity and lack of intelligence. While both parties are blatantly idiots, the latter perhaps more, both imagined their assertions to be correct. Once again i believe this lies within the scope of the argument and the methods used by both parties. One party may be used to a systematic structured method of arguing points, which may not use reasoning as often as it should, perhaps similar to the legal system in this country as the probability of acquittal is directly related to the amount of money spent on your representation. Another party may be used to a much looser way of arguing which only involves logic and takes into account truths opposed to spoken words which in some cases can be complete contradictions. Both parties have similar goals, trying to convince the other party of their view and if possible to concede defeat. Here in lies a conflict within itself that has no bearing on the actual topic being discussed. When you mix in unknown factors, as stated in the introduction the situation can lead to disarray very fast.
And while this post has been made in general, i am sure you can tell i am one of the parties within a conflict of this nature.
I feel that this quote has significant bearance without my specific conflict. Anyone who does know me, knows my tendencies, and my technique which can resort to personal attacks and unneccessary provocation. I am able to admit this, however i do allow for logic and reason to govern my overall opinion on the topic. Frustration often leads to the less than appropriate arguments, within reason ofcourse. The problem stems from opinion and the lack of knowledge within the areas. I for one, do not tolerate an opinion based on a lack of knowledge. I.E. if i know about a subject material MORE than the other party in hand, i will make the other party aware of this fact and point out the holes in their logic due to their lack of knowledge. This can often be interpreted as a personal attack, which due to the nature of language in general can be true. HOWEVER, if you are the party with the lack of knowledge, you should acknowledge this fact and realize that you may have erred in your logic. I am often faced with this when arguing with many people, and would rather gain insight into my illogic than take their points/attacks personally.
"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves."
- Carl Jung
To make a final point on this topic, the argument was quite atrocious as both parties had a serious lack of knowledge with various areas, leading to a shitstorm. After hearing people WITH knowledge, i believe both parties can see the errors in their logic along with a sound understanding of the opposing parties points.
However the escalation of the shitstorm has brought up serious levels of agression and animosity between both parties. When personal attacks are escalated to the point of direct attacks of character and intelligence, shit will inevitable go down. When a party blatantly says that the other is ignorant and stupid, nothing will help. Nor if a party says that the other party things the world revolves around them.
Since this is my blog and is completely biased i will be taking my stance at this point. There are a number of factors which affected this conflict:
- The seriousness of the topic at hand, my party didn't take this nearly as serious as the other party, never at any point thinking that it could possibly end a friendship.
- The amount of latent agression which was unheard for many years, and allowed this argument to be the medium of discussing it.
- skeleton's in the closet.
Inferiority complexes according to Alfred Adler:
"A secondary inferiority feeling relates to an adult's experience of being unable to reach an unconscious, fictional final goal of subjective security and success to compensate for the inferiority feelings."
The roots of the inferiority feelings may be deeply embedded from various sources, childhood, the overshadowing of a successful sibling, a sense of guilt for not achieving at the levels desired, etc. All of these lead to insecurites with an individual's psyche.
What i think can be a brilliant indicator of this type of feelings is the presumtious nature of thinking that one has a significant impact on another parties insecurities. I can see this being a real possibility in certain situations if both parties do the same thing and have been for a significant amount of time, such as being pre-med in college and then going on to medical school and doing residency and eventually as doctors, 15 years with someone being significantly better than you can definitely affect your attitude, depending on the type of relationship between the two parties. BUT if both parties are doing completly different things, there is no correlation for success jealousy complex to occur. It can, but is highly unlikely. And in the specific case in hand, has no bearance.
In conclusion, skeletons in the closet are bad, they should be addressed, and conflicts/arguments should not be the medium for these issues to be surfaced. Also parties should not have a false impression that they are experts in subject matter that they may have taken a class in once. After taking an intro class in portfolio management does not warrant someone giving advice on stock investments at the same level as a portfolio manager managing a successful hedgefund for 15 years. You just don't do it, unless ofcourse you really are what your worst fears are...
I for one do not want to lose a friend over such ridiculous matter, burning bridges is not my style, but if the other party feels that way, then there is no point in discussing this.
I wish the best of success to all in their endeavors and in life. Cheers.
7.14.2006
BharaT
My india trip was fabulous, the wedding was beautiful, i plan on giving a full narration on what happened later on when i can post some of the pics.
winay beta
how come the vast majority of people suck?
serious shit has gone down since i last wrote, the italians triumphed over a team full of blacks and muslims... yea.... i woulda knocked him out if he called my mom a terrorist whore too...
What kills me is that some of my family is basically in the same category, not really, but i dunno where the racism comes from. Sad i must say, also quite homophobic.
bothers me a lot. actually what bothers me more is the fact that they have no fucking clue about anything...READ SOME FUCKING BOOKS!!!
serious shit has gone down since i last wrote, the italians triumphed over a team full of blacks and muslims... yea.... i woulda knocked him out if he called my mom a terrorist whore too...
What kills me is that some of my family is basically in the same category, not really, but i dunno where the racism comes from. Sad i must say, also quite homophobic.
bothers me a lot. actually what bothers me more is the fact that they have no fucking clue about anything...READ SOME FUCKING BOOKS!!!
6.06.2006
NY state of mind
"Beyond the walls of intelligence, life is defined
I think of crime when I'm in a New York state of mind"
- Nas
So i've finally been in the city for a minute. Thats about it. I'll finish this later.
I think of crime when I'm in a New York state of mind"
- Nas
So i've finally been in the city for a minute. Thats about it. I'll finish this later.
5.30.2006
winded by chiCITY
Booyakasha, i'm back in the real city. Chitown was a grand old time. Actually i was locked up in St. Charles, IL about like 1 hr away from chitown. EVERYTHING IS SOOO BLOODY FLAT!!
Core analyst school was alright, slightly more fun than a root canal. 11 hours a day locked in a classroom and massive consumption of alcohol in the evenings, it was a cross of highschool and college. Although it could have been much worse, luckily i had some interesting characters in my group, we got Lotte, Baldy, John Wick, Barcelona, and Ztv. all interesting personas, must give the prize to Barcelona, pronounced 'Barshaloena', for skipping 4 hours of class and hiding in his room while security went looking for him during the Champions League final between Arsenal and Barcelona. up like 10 notches in my book. Our group was the dog's bollocks for sure, we won some accenture branded coffee holder/mug thingys.
There are a number of hilarious anecdotes from the trip, which could consume a number of pages, i may write out a few of them, infact i will at some point, most of the great ones are in regards to Ben aka. Josh Weinstein, and his knack to say the most hilarious shit at the most random times.
Anecdotes to expand on:
Anyways more to come as i explain the best ones in the future, overall the trip was good, met some cool heads who i'll hopefully chill with in chitown next time i visit.
Core analyst school was alright, slightly more fun than a root canal. 11 hours a day locked in a classroom and massive consumption of alcohol in the evenings, it was a cross of highschool and college. Although it could have been much worse, luckily i had some interesting characters in my group, we got Lotte, Baldy, John Wick, Barcelona, and Ztv. all interesting personas, must give the prize to Barcelona, pronounced 'Barshaloena', for skipping 4 hours of class and hiding in his room while security went looking for him during the Champions League final between Arsenal and Barcelona. up like 10 notches in my book. Our group was the dog's bollocks for sure, we won some accenture branded coffee holder/mug thingys.
There are a number of hilarious anecdotes from the trip, which could consume a number of pages, i may write out a few of them, infact i will at some point, most of the great ones are in regards to Ben aka. Josh Weinstein, and his knack to say the most hilarious shit at the most random times.
Anecdotes to expand on:
- me getting attacked by a bush
- me absorbing an entire glass of sam adams with my clothes
- josh's statement about getting ass as soon as a chick walks on the elevator
- josh's statement about liking black men with british accents
- josh's statement in regards to him not being straight
- me saying "where the fuck are we??? bombay??" and immediately getting a number
- me bailing out of being a wingman when mayday signals were flying out
- pretending to be a manager
- saying "fuck you dude" to a faculty member while wasted, not realizing he is a faculty member
- i'm the juggernaut BITCH!!!
- getting taller with josh and krishna gopal reddy, haha
Anyways more to come as i explain the best ones in the future, overall the trip was good, met some cool heads who i'll hopefully chill with in chitown next time i visit.
5.11.2006
Murray HiLL
yo check it, I've been in murray hill for the last 2 weeks, Terrible. either way my stint with jersey is nearly over, i shall be heading back to the city, however only to take a flight to chicago on sunday. Chi city should be a good time.
Summary of current events in my life:
none.
the highlight of my day involves playing soccer with my lil cousin and his neighborhood. i feel like billy madison.
actually i have been exploring some new music, which ain't too bad, check out www.pandora.com
Tiesto - Love comes again(feat. BT)
don't give up - chicane(not new at all, but such a great song!!) this album is one of the best in my opinion
Anyways in the spirit of hilarity, hindi movies still crack me up beyond no believe. I dunno if anyone has seen Bluffmaster or the songs, either way seeing Abishek Bachan acting like a gansta is quite hilarious, although i must say priyanka chopra could have a successful future as a chick in music videos.
Everytime i watch hindi movies i get angry for some reason or another, 1) the dudes are usually horribly ugly and i feel that i could be a better actor, or i'm just jealous cause they got beautiful girls on their arms, probably the latter. 2) american-esqe music is so horrible that i feel i could put together better tracks in my sleep. Seriously i could probably take a dump on a piece of paper and come up with better lyrics.
Either way i'm never going to do anything about it, so i might as well just not watch hindi movies altogether. i'm yet to really figure out my subconscious anger towards indian people. that is altogether another thesis to write out. If any of you ever read my xanga you may have gotten some of my previous theories relating to my insanity. xangaid mahavinyl_nripa. I actually had an audience, primarily due to the fact i did nothing at my summer internship like 3 years ago. Scoured the internet for hot indian chicks and posted their pics, I'm talking style and grace, not the garbage pics that most desi people consider nice. There again i'm hating on desis, dunno why, do i think i'm better than them....
I'm a prick what can i say. I'm turning into a bastard clone also.
a desi yupster in manhattan, a suit in the morning, a black shirt and shiny shoes at night, $20 drinks i don't really want, but want to order. Talking to brown golddiggers interested in my car and where my apt is. This isn't life, its manufactured consumerism
I'm out. I'ts official, no more phoniness. TIME TO BE REAL.
peace i'm out of here, seeya in chicity, home of mass hysteria
Summary of current events in my life:
none.
the highlight of my day involves playing soccer with my lil cousin and his neighborhood. i feel like billy madison.
actually i have been exploring some new music, which ain't too bad, check out www.pandora.com
Tiesto - Love comes again(feat. BT)
don't give up - chicane(not new at all, but such a great song!!) this album is one of the best in my opinion
Anyways in the spirit of hilarity, hindi movies still crack me up beyond no believe. I dunno if anyone has seen Bluffmaster or the songs, either way seeing Abishek Bachan acting like a gansta is quite hilarious, although i must say priyanka chopra could have a successful future as a chick in music videos.
Everytime i watch hindi movies i get angry for some reason or another, 1) the dudes are usually horribly ugly and i feel that i could be a better actor, or i'm just jealous cause they got beautiful girls on their arms, probably the latter. 2) american-esqe music is so horrible that i feel i could put together better tracks in my sleep. Seriously i could probably take a dump on a piece of paper and come up with better lyrics.
Either way i'm never going to do anything about it, so i might as well just not watch hindi movies altogether. i'm yet to really figure out my subconscious anger towards indian people. that is altogether another thesis to write out. If any of you ever read my xanga you may have gotten some of my previous theories relating to my insanity. xangaid mahavinyl_nripa. I actually had an audience, primarily due to the fact i did nothing at my summer internship like 3 years ago. Scoured the internet for hot indian chicks and posted their pics, I'm talking style and grace, not the garbage pics that most desi people consider nice. There again i'm hating on desis, dunno why, do i think i'm better than them....
I'm a prick what can i say. I'm turning into a bastard clone also.
a desi yupster in manhattan, a suit in the morning, a black shirt and shiny shoes at night, $20 drinks i don't really want, but want to order. Talking to brown golddiggers interested in my car and where my apt is. This isn't life, its manufactured consumerism
I'm out. I'ts official, no more phoniness. TIME TO BE REAL.
peace i'm out of here, seeya in chicity, home of mass hysteria
4.12.2006
Raja Yoga
You may ask what that state would be in which there is no mind, no knowledge. What we call knowledge is a lower state than the one beyond knowledge You must always bear in mind that the extremes look very much alike. If a very low vibration of either is taken as darkness, and an intermediate state as light, a very high vibration will be darkness again. Similarly, ignorance is the lowest state, knowledge is the middle state, and beyond knowledge is the highest state; the two extremes seem the same. Knowledge itself is a manufactured something, a combination; it is not Reality.
- Swami Vivekananda
- Swami Vivekananda
4.11.2006
manHATTAN
Movin on up ....
to the Upper East Side
Yes you heard me, my new pad is at 82nd street between 1rst and 2nd ave....sadly closer to first, but i don't give a shit cause its in manhattan.
Anyways the job starts ont he 24th, movin' in sometime within the next week or so, gotta figure out what i'm bringing.
This is going to be great.
to the Upper East Side
Yes you heard me, my new pad is at 82nd street between 1rst and 2nd ave....sadly closer to first, but i don't give a shit cause its in manhattan.
Anyways the job starts ont he 24th, movin' in sometime within the next week or so, gotta figure out what i'm bringing.
This is going to be great.
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